Before I discovered the world of performance art and sculpture for myself, I did not have a healthy outlet to work through my emotional problems. There are experiences that I have that many could relate to and then there are experiences that very few have endured such as childhood trauma. From these traumatic experiences breed demons that whisper in my ear, constantly telling me I will never be good enough and that the world would be better off without me. At first, I didn’t believe these “demons” but as time went on, their words began to weigh me down, slowly and steadily killing any sort of rationale that I have in regards to my well-being and safety. Living my life fast and recklessly led to me believing that these demons had taken complete control of my life. The only reason that my life seemed that way was because I was giving these demons power. I knew this all too well and I despised the idea that I was giving an invisible enemy such great power over myself, I wanted to fight them.
How do you fight an enemy that you can’t see and that’s in your head? This art piece is my solution. Every experience that has ever haunted me, every coping mechanism that has left me battered, bruised, and feeling even worse, experiences that I can never discuss with anyone openly without repercussions and all the demons that come with it. I cannot destroy these demons for they’re also a part of me, so I have to embrace them for what they are, my vices.
By creating these costume pieces, I give a face to the monsters that remained invisible in my life for the longest time, a foe that I can finally see face-to-face and fight to conquer. And by wearing my vices, I embody my demons and am finally able to accept and embrace my experiences. Through performing and personifying these monsters, I show others that they are not alone in their trauma, I get people to think more deeply about themselves and their own experiences. The point of my work is to not just help myself heal and conquer my vices, but to also reach out and connect to the audience. Without using words, I show others how I see and defeat my demons, and that I will no longer be beaten down by my vices. I will rise above and become the warrior I was born to be, better than ever and stronger.
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